She sticks her tongue out at me and crosses her eyes. Not sure why that made me want to do her in the backseat, but to each his own, I guess.
J.A. RedmerskiI'm not sure what it is that I want, but I feel it deep in the pit of my stomach. It's there sitting dormant. I'll know it when I see it.
J.A. RedmerskiJust that dwelling and planning is bullshit, you dwell on the past, you canโt move forward. Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards, or you stay stagnant in the same place all your life. Live in the moment, where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and youโll get wherever it is youโre going a lot faster and with less bumps in the road along the way.
J.A. RedmerskiWell, everybody needs help feeling alive again every once in a while.โ โNo,โ she says seriously, and my gaze falls back on hers, โI didnโt say again, Andrew; for making me feel alive for the first time.
J.A. RedmerskiAnd when someone grows up knowing so little of what real love feels like, whether from family, or friends, or the love of a companion, that person starts to believe that they werenโt meant to be loved, that good things will never happen to them. They start to believe that whenever something good does happen, itโs inevitable that something bad will come along to replace it.
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