But as I stood there dressed in a cute black pants suit and white button-up shirt and heels, I felt completely out of place. Not necessarily because of the clothes, butโฆI just donโt belong there. I canโt put my finger on it, but that Monday and the rest of that week when I woke up, got dressed and walked into that store, something was itching the back part of my consciousness. I couldnโt hear the actual words, but it felt like: This is your life, Camryn Bennett. This is your life.
J.A. Redmerskilet yourself cry, OK? One of the worst feelings in the world is being unable to cry and eventually itโฆstarts to make things darker.
J.A. RedmerskiI think when you fall in love, like true love, itโs love for life. All the rest is just experiences and delusions.
J.A. RedmerskiI think it was the one thing I didnโt like about him or about guys in general: when a girl says she doesnโt want to talk about it, the truth is that she usually does. I wanted him to pry it out of me. Of course, I wouldโve pretended to be a little angry that he didnโt just leave me alone, but eventually I wouldโve told him, when I was tired of pretending.
J.A. RedmerskiI have never lived the way I lived during my short time with you. For the first time in my life, Iโve felt whole, alive, free. You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. I think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. Iโve known you for a short time, but I feel like Iโve known you forever
J.A. RedmerskiAnd when someone grows up knowing so little of what real love feels like, whether from family, or friends, or the love of a companion, that person starts to believe that they werenโt meant to be loved, that good things will never happen to them. They start to believe that whenever something good does happen, itโs inevitable that something bad will come along to replace it.
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