No one has to bear the burden of tough times all by themselves.
You must take responsibility for removing I can't from your vocabulary.
What have you done for YOURSELF this year to create a better life?
I generally find that comparison is the fast track to unhappiness. No one ever compares themselves to someone else and comes out even. Nine times out of ten, we compare ourselves to people who are somehow better than us and end up feeling more inadequate.
If you hang in there long enough, you will eventually reach your goal.
Whatever your dream is, look yourself in the mirror and declare that you are indeed going to achieve it -no matter what the price.