Nothing else loves me, or ever will. Not even - especially - me. I know what I am and that is not a thing to love.
Jeff LindsayFor my part, my interest in Paris had faded away completely long ago when I learned that it was in France.
Jeff LindsayAnd as always seems to happen when I have reached the point where I am ready to take decisive action, everything began to happen at once.
Jeff LindsayAnother dream. Another long-distance call on my phantom party line. No wonder i had steadfastly refused to have dreams for most of my life. So stupid; such pointless, obvious symbols. Totally uncontrollable anxiety soup, hateful, blatant nonsense.
Jeff LindsayItโs an odd term, 'girlfriend,' particularly for grown persons. And in practice it provides an even odder concept. Generally speaking, in adults it described a woman, not a girl, who was willing to provide sex, not friendship. In fact, from what I had observed it was quite possible for one to actively dislike oneโs girlfriend, although of course true hatred is reserved for marriage.
Jeff Lindsay