I was an emotional basket case.
What I want out of tennis is not necessarily just winning.
Now a lot has changed and I can separate a lot of things.
Let me say that the path I did take for a brief period of my life was not of reckless drug use, hurting others, but it was a path of quiet rebellion, of a little experimentation of a darker side of my confusion in a confusing world, lost in the midst of finding my identity.
I'm happy with what I've done but it's a challenge to try to win more.
Coming back after the layoff, I wasn't really sure what to expect.