You have to block everything out and be extremely focused and be relaxed and mellow too.

It wasn't my tennis that made me lose, it was a lot of different things going on, high drama, high emotion.

But, you know, I just want to play well and have fun playing well.

People want to hear what I have to say and respect what I say.

Let me say that the path I did take for a brief period of my life was not of reckless drug use, hurting others, but it was a path of quiet rebellion, of a little experimentation of a darker side of my confusion in a confusing world, lost in the midst of finding my identity.

I mean, I feel like just a new person completely.

Tennis is what I do and is part of who I am.