It doesn't matter whether I qualify or wildcards.
You have to block everything out and be extremely focused and be relaxed and mellow too.
But, you know, I just want to play well and have fun playing well.
Forget about tennis, I was scared to open my mouth. I didnt even feel worthy of saying something and not sounding stupid.
I was an emotional basket case.
Let me say that the path I did take for a brief period of my life was not of reckless drug use, hurting others, but it was a path of quiet rebellion, of a little experimentation of a darker side of my confusion in a confusing world, lost in the midst of finding my identity.