And as paralyzing and upsetting as all the never agains were, the final leaving felt perfect. Pure. The most distilled possible form of liberation. Everything that mattered except one lousy picture was in the trash, but it felt so great. I started jogging, wanting to put even more distance between myself and school. It is so hard to leaveโuntil you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.
John GreenI mean, I am pretty fabulous. Am I not?' 'You're a pillar of fabulosity in the community,' I tell him.
John GreenYeah, so if that guy can make it in drunk, surely we can make it in sober. I mean, weโre ninjas.' 'Well, maybe youโre a ninja,' I said. 'Youโre just a really loud, awkward ninja,' Margo said, 'but we are both ninjas.
John GreenThe prospect of a world that contains neither humans nor Z's is not so terrifying. Nature will take its world back. Animals will frolic and fight. There will be no lord of the manor, which is not such a bad thing, because it seems to me that people have done a pretty poor job of guiding the biosphere for the last few thousand years.
John GreenAnd then we were kissing. My hand let go of the oxygen cart and I reached up for his neck, and he pulled me up by my waist onto my tiptoes. As his parted lips met mine, I started to feel breathless in a new and fascinating way. The space around us evaporated, and for a weird moment I really liked my body, this cancer-ruined thing I'd spent years dragging around suddenly seemed worth the struggle, worth the chest tubes and PICC lines and the ceaseless bodily betrayal of the tumors.
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