I shouldn't have been there. I should never have been born.

How does he do it? Live. With the fear of death every day. I don't fear death as much as I fear the thought of living.

But I'm no hero. I had to keep my dirty little secret. The worst sin I committed was holding it in; letting the secret blacken me.

Yeah, I hear the truth. But this is my truth.

Year after year. "Please don't make me go [to school]" "You have to go," Kim would say. "It's a new school, make a new start." "Sticks and stones." from Chip. Words will only kill you.

My parents will be sad for a while, and they may even blame themselves, the way they do now. Eventually they'll come to peace with my decision. I hope they'll realize I'm finally at peace.

But she never just accepted me for the way I was.