I'm all she's got and if I don't make it this time . . ." You'll pass through the light. A ribbon of guilt twists my stomach. I'm all Kim and Chip have too. But the difference is, they'll be better off without me.

She's still doing it, pushing me into situations I can't handle, making me cope. She knows I can't cope.

I'm sorry you don't get it, Mom. Sometimes I don't get why I do the things I do. I just know I wake up every morning and wish I was dead.

But I'm no hero. I had to keep my dirty little secret. The worst sin I committed was holding it in; letting the secret blacken me.

I know it's hard on her. If I don't tell her she'll kill me." He pauses. "That was supposed to be funny.

Why am i here? What's my purpose?

His eyes are like a telescope. I look into them and I'm transported across the universe to a world I've never been.