Sometimes consciousness devises an obstacle in order to have the experience of transcending it.
You already are, the peace you are looking for. Be still and know that
You cannot be anything that you point to.
When you have no intention then you have no tension! Be flexible.
Self-Enquiry is not asking you to believe or to trust - it is putting a mirror in front of you and asking you to look. Enquiry is suited to many people in the West, because we are more mental. And it is very direct. So unsparing is its look that nothing can escape.
At the end of the day, you can have something in your head, something in your hand, or something in your heart. What are you choosing?