I wanted to step forward and be on TV and for people to see who I really was.

I wanted control over what was said and what was not said, rather than holding my head down in shame.

I was reading so much about myself in the papers that was not me.

Don't get me wrong - I love London, and still have an apartment there. But it is also a hard city and it wears you down.

I am seriously considering it.

I did not know what my future was going to hold.

I got a phone call saying we are from the News of the World, and we're exposing you and David Beckham. My heart did not beat for a minute.