Knowing one was comprised of recycled matter only and that selfhood was a delusion did not take away the aching of the heart.
Sebastian FaulksDepression - that limp word for the storm of black panic and half-demented malfunction - had over the years worked itself out in Charlotte's life in a curious pattern. Its onset was often imperceptible: like an assiduous housekeeper locking up a rambling mansion, it noiselessly went about and turned off, one by one, the mind's thousand small accesses to pleasure.
Sebastian FaulksFrom an early age she had developed the art of being alone and generally preferred her own company to anyone elseโs. She read books at enormous speed and judged them entirely on her ability to remove her from her material surroundings. In almost all the unhappiest days of her life she had been able to escape from her own inner world by living temporarily in someone elseโs, and on the two or three occasions that she had been too upset to concentrate she had been desolate.
Sebastian FaulksThat sense of happiness just out beyond my reach - I'm not sure I'd grasped that exactly, but I'd got something close to it, contentment maybe, or at least a functioning routine with regular rewards.
Sebastian FaulksLonely's like any other organism; competitive and resourceful in the struggle to perpetuate itself.
Sebastian FaulksThis intimacy is not necessary; no one is compelling me to open my inmost self and lay it naked, undefended, against that of another โ merely for the joy of the communion.
Sebastian FaulksLife can be lived at a remove. You trade in futures, and then you trade in derivatives of futures. Banks make more money trading derivatives than they do trading actual commodities.
Sebastian FaulksI have written millions of words about contemporary England - in journalism. Why don't I take it as the background for a novel? I may do one day. But the simple answer is that it does not excite the novelistic part of my brain; it does not fire it up.
Sebastian FaulksIf I could eat only one thing for the rest of my life, it would be rhubarb fool, which I make with ginger and a hint of elderflower cordial.
Sebastian FaulksThe best thing is the combined effect of nicotine with alcohol, greater than the sum of the two parts.
Sebastian FaulksThey're so attached to their patterns that they've forgotten rule number one of human behavior: there are no patterns. People just do things. There's no such things as a coherent and fully integrated human personality, let alone consistent motivation.
Sebastian FaulksWe all operate on different levels of awareness. Half the time I don't know what I'm doing.
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