It takes a lot of guts to stop measuring things that are measurable, and even more guts to create things that don't measure well by conventional means.
SethIt is not virtuous in any way to put yourself down, or to punish yourself, because you do not feel you have lived up to your best behavior at any given time.
SethThe past existed in multitudinous ways. You only experienced one probable past. By changing this past in your mind, now, in your present, you can change not only its nature but its effect, and not only upon yourself but upon others.
Seth