As the light begins to intensify, so does my misery, and I wonder how it is possible to hurt so much when nothing is wrong.

There are no laws, no boundaries on feelings.We can love each other as much and as deeply as we want.No one, Maya, no one can ever take that away from us.

I am overcome by a feeling of complete detachment. I am a mere object to these people. I am barely human any more.

But whichever form it took it brought with it, in those moments of bitter anguish, such a desperate surge of hope that it was almost untouchable, and flitted away like a golden butterfly into the bright blue sky - beautiful, unreachable and completely transistent.

Lochie. The boy I once loved. The boy I still love. The boy I will continue to love, even when my part in this world is over too.

And I know how he feels–it’s so good it hurts.

You've always been my best friend, my soul mate, and now I've fallen in love with you too. Why is that such a crime?