I love you inโin every kind of way.โ โI feel like that too . . .โ His voice is shocked and raw. โItโs โ itโs a feeling so big I sometimes think itโs going to swalow me. Itโs so strong I feel it could kil me. It keeps growing and I canโt โ I donโt know what to do to stop it. But โ but weโre not supposed to do this โ to love each other like this!
Tabitha SuzumaI don't know when it started - this thing - bit it's growing, muffling me, suffocating me like poison ivy. I grew into it. It grew into me. We blurred at the edges, became an amorphous, seeping, crawling thing.
Tabitha SuzumaThere are no laws, no boundaries on feelings.We can love each other as much and as deeply as we want.No one, Maya, no one can ever take that away from us.
Tabitha SuzumaDo I realy regret that night? That one moment of joy beyond compare โ some people never experience it in a lifetime. But the downside to that taste of pure happiness is that,like a drug, a glimmer of paradise, it leaves you craving more.
Tabitha SuzumaAny guy, even imaginary, would just feel like second best. Second best to what? I don't even have an image of the perfect boyfriend. I just know he must exist. Because I have all these feelings-love, longing, wanting to be touched, dreaming of being kissed-yet no one to focus them on.
Tabitha Suzuma