He will think Lochan wasn't loved, but he was, more deeply than most people are in a lifetime.

I can’t tell you. I can’t tell you of all people. Throughout my life you were the one person I could turn to. The one person I could always count on to understand. And now that I’ve lost you, I’ve lost everything.

Otherwise I'll fall apart. I'm going to fall apart. I am falling apart.

The words fire from my mouth like bullets, ricocheting off the walls before I can even register what I'm saying.

I feel like I'm going crazy: seeing you every day but never being able to - to hold you, to touch you when anyone else is around. i just want to take your hand, kiss you, hug you, without having to hide all the time. All those things every other couple takes for granted!

How can something so wrong feel so right?

Get through today – you can fall apart tomorrow. Get through tomorrow, you can fall apart the day after . . .