But I know what it means to crave what you're not. To want to sew up that rift because it's exhausting to hold it open. Sometimes you just need to be someone else, someone who doesn't care about anything at all. I know I do. I want emptiness but I can't have it.

The world is a violent child none of us will get to see grow up.

There doesn't seem to be a lot of stance from the outside of that world to disagree.

I light candles. I meditate. And I don't believe in anything. By default I move simultaneously towards mysticism and atheism. It's not something that's ever going to get fixed.

Some things are so sad that they have no name. I have tried to name them and I can't.

For me it comes down to one thing: I'm trying to follow my own nature.

I'm really bad at being nonviolent.