For me it comes down to one thing: I'm trying to follow my own nature.

Go ahead and do what you're doing.

Being well-mannered and gracious and kind are things that I value really highly.

I was always face to face with total futility and powerlessness.

I learned to live in my own head. I learned to follow intuition and more than anything, I learned what was important to me.

I light candles. I meditate. And I don't believe in anything. By default I move simultaneously towards mysticism and atheism. It's not something that's ever going to get fixed.

If you're with an agent and they don't like where your work is going - the pressure behind it is the pressure of the hierarchy which says "I know what I am talking about," which I find offensive.