The world is a violent child none of us will get to see grow up.
I would love to love something, especially if I could do it without feeling like I was watching it die right in front of me.
For me it comes down to one thing: I'm trying to follow my own nature.
I was always face to face with total futility and powerlessness.
I learned to live in my own head. I learned to follow intuition and more than anything, I learned what was important to me.
If you're with an agent and they don't like where your work is going - the pressure behind it is the pressure of the hierarchy which says "I know what I am talking about," which I find offensive.