Go ahead and do what you're doing.

I learned to live in my own head. I learned to follow intuition and more than anything, I learned what was important to me.

I was always face to face with total futility and powerlessness.

For me it comes down to one thing: I'm trying to follow my own nature.

I light candles. I meditate. And I don't believe in anything. By default I move simultaneously towards mysticism and atheism. It's not something that's ever going to get fixed.

Being well-mannered and gracious and kind are things that I value really highly.

But I know what it means to crave what you're not. To want to sew up that rift because it's exhausting to hold it open. Sometimes you just need to be someone else, someone who doesn't care about anything at all. I know I do. I want emptiness but I can't have it.