For me it comes down to one thing: I'm trying to follow my own nature.
I would love to love something, especially if I could do it without feeling like I was watching it die right in front of me.
Being well-mannered and gracious and kind are things that I value really highly.
Some things are so sad that they have no name. I have tried to name them and I can't.
I was always face to face with total futility and powerlessness.
Go ahead and do what you're doing.