I don't want to be that guy mumbling into his drink at a bar.
I'm not an ungenerous person; I don't resent it. It's just sort of a head-scratcher.
I feel like I'm a better person when I'm quieter.
Be available for life to happen.
The automatic things you do are basically those things that keep you from doing the better things you need to do.
Somewhere there's a score being kept, so you have an obligation to live life as well as you can, be as engaged as you can.