You cannot be happy unless you are serving the truth of your being, however that service looks.
GangajiSelf is not liberated. It was never bound. What gets liberated are the demons as well as gods of your mind. Set them free. You are sick of playing with the game. Be willing to not play the game. This takes huge resolve.
GangajiThe most sublime truth of all has never been stated or written or sung. Not because it is far away and can not be reached, but because it is so intimately close, closer than anything that can be spoken. It is alive as the stillness in the core of your being, too close to be described, too close to be objectified, too close to be known in the usual way of knowledge. The truth of who you are is yours already. It is already present.
GangajiYou are here. However you imagine yourself to be, you are here. Imagine yourself as a body, you are here. Imagine yourself as God, you are here. Imagine yourself as worthless, superior, nothing at all, you are still here. My suggestion is that you stop all imagining, here.
GangajiTime is a very useful concept in terms of survival. It's extraordinary that we can delineate a day into segments so that we can actually look at those segments, examine them, and see what worked and what didn't' work. We get very attached to time because it's a power, this invention of time is very powerful, and we like power.
Gangaji