People ask me 'what was going through your mind in the race?' and I don't know. I try and ...let my body do what it knows

Compared to how I have raced before and how I have competed, the success that I have had, this does look like doom compared to it.

When I go out and race, I'm not trying to beat opponents, I'm trying to beat what I have done ... to beat myself, basically. People find that hard to believe because we've had such a bias to always strive to win things. If you win something and you haven't put everything into it, you haven't actually achieved anything at all. When you've had to work hard for something and you've got the best you can out of yourself on that given day, that's where you get satisfaction from.

This Is Me”: ”For the record, I am not gay and all my sexual experiences have been straight. I'm attracted to women, I love children and aspire to have a family one day … I know what it's like to grow up and be told what your sexuality is, then realising that it's not the full reality. I was accused of being gay before I knew who I was.

For myself, losing is not coming second. It's getting out of the water knowing you could have done better. For myself, I have won every race I've been in

I'll go for broke. Swim faster. It's not going to be easy - this whole thing was never going to be easy.

Part of me didn't know if Australia wanted its champion to be gay.