I only get the points because I have team-mates who do the work and put me in the position to get them.

I want to be more than just some guy who played in a World Cup final.

Playing the game, representing the team, giving my all and never letting go has meant everything to me.

I like to think I play rugby as it should be played - there are no yellow or red cards in my collection - but I cannot say I'm an angel.

I'm pretty aware that the pursuit of perfection is, inherently, a flawed concept.

My own position is so far on the obsessive side of preparation and professionalism that I fear my point of view is not going to be shared by anyone.

When you're obsessive, like me, searching for something unattainable can become unhealthy ... it's like falling through the air and grabbing at the clouds.