The conversation topic in my head is not what role I should play; it is whether I am going to play at all.

Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldnt bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down.

I wouldn't go in a fast food outlet even to use the toilet.

I do, have done and always will believe that I am very capable of performing and thriving at any level of the sport.

The problem with me is I always think I should've done better. I felt that after the World Cup final and through my whole career.

I'm pretty aware that the pursuit of perfection is, inherently, a flawed concept.

I'm not necessarily proud of the World Cups and the grand slams won or lost, the amount of points I scored, this record or that.