I refuse to go into a fast-food outlet - to use the toilet even - in case anyone got the wrong idea and thought I was sneaking in a quick burger.

I only get the points because I have team-mates who do the work and put me in the position to get them.

We need to ask ourselves what are we here for and what have we worked so hard to be here for.

For me now, I will continue to focus ever harder on my goal of being the very best I can be with Toulon Rugby Club and continue to embrace and enjoy wherever that path takes me.

When you're obsessive, like me, searching for something unattainable can become unhealthy ... it's like falling through the air and grabbing at the clouds.

I wouldn't go in a fast food outlet even to use the toilet.

Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldnt bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down.