The problem with me is I always think I should've done better. I felt that after the World Cup final and through my whole career.

I play with a fear of letting my team down. That's what motivates me.

What I am proud of is I have searched for the best of me and I have been a team man without fail.

I do, have done and always will believe that I am very capable of performing and thriving at any level of the sport.

I'm not necessarily proud of the World Cups and the grand slams won or lost, the amount of points I scored, this record or that.

Playing the game, representing the team, giving my all and never letting go has meant everything to me.

Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldnt bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down.