I want to be more than just some guy who played in a World Cup final.

I know that Martin Johnson [the England coach] was in the stands, but I didn't feel it was up to me to impress them. He and his assistant [Brian Smith] were here to support me.

I only get the points because I have team-mates who do the work and put me in the position to get them.

I'm not necessarily proud of the World Cups and the grand slams won or lost, the amount of points I scored, this record or that.

I refuse to go into a fast-food outlet - to use the toilet even - in case anyone got the wrong idea and thought I was sneaking in a quick burger.

Failing at something is one thing, but Buddhism tells us that it is up to us how we interpret that failure [Buddhism] a philosophy and way of life that resonates with me I identify with it. I agree with so much of the sentiment behind it. I enjoy the liberating effect it's had on me to get back into the game Buddhism, with its concepts of karma and rebirth, have freed me from the twin fears of death and life without rugby, like life, will also come to an end.

Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldnt bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down.