Failing at something is one thing, but Buddhism tells us that it is up to us how we interpret that failure [Buddhism] a philosophy and way of life that resonates with me I identify with it. I agree with so much of the sentiment behind it. I enjoy the liberating effect it's had on me to get back into the game Buddhism, with its concepts of karma and rebirth, have freed me from the twin fears of death and life without rugby, like life, will also come to an end.

Those Aussie rugby fans are a bunch of sore losers. I hate 'em all.

Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldnt bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down.

What I am proud of is I have searched for the best of me and I have been a team man without fail.

I only get the points because I have team-mates who do the work and put me in the position to get them.

I do, have done and always will believe that I am very capable of performing and thriving at any level of the sport.

The conversation topic in my head is not what role I should play; it is whether I am going to play at all.