What I am proud of is I have searched for the best of me and I have been a team man without fail.

To say I have played through four World Cups, two Lions tours, 91 international games and a ridiculous number of injuries and other setbacks gives me an incredibly special feeling of fulfilment. I know myself well enough to know that I will never truly be satisfied.

I play with a fear of letting my team down. That's what motivates me.

When you're obsessive, like me, searching for something unattainable can become unhealthy ... it's like falling through the air and grabbing at the clouds.

I want to be more than just some guy who played in a World Cup final.

My own position is so far on the obsessive side of preparation and professionalism that I fear my point of view is not going to be shared by anyone.

I do, have done and always will believe that I am very capable of performing and thriving at any level of the sport.