I really felt that I had to stay level, I had to control, I had to know what I was eating, I had to know what I was doing, I had to work out. All that stuff is very powerful and it really helps, but now I don't do it out of survival. At first, I was just trying to survive. I assumed at some point I'd be screwed otherwise.
Mariel HemingwayWhat I wasn't prepared for were the feelings of anxiety that it stirred in me. I wasn't prepared for the initial feeling of I don't want to have to do that again. I was scared.
Mariel HemingwayPeople can sense you lying on the camera, they can smell it. They know when you're not telling the truth. Then it does become reality-show bullshit.
Mariel Hemingway