After I can be happy with knowing that I did what I wanted to do.
I think that ballads are always something where I can really become one with the audiance.
People around me called me an idol, so that's what I was.
Now, on nights that I can't sleep, I play video games alone until the morning.
If I don't think about anything, and start with a clean slate, in terms of what I have to do, a lot of different ideas come up, and I can think about things more openly.
I had no choice in the decision to make myself available. I was not always doing things I wanted to do.