When I was younger, there was a huge gap between what I wanted to do and what I could do as an idol.
I'm not completely at ease at rapping, I can't do it well yet.
My popularity plunged three years ago and I didn't try to court publicity.
Now, on nights that I can't sleep, I play video games alone until the morning.
I had no choice in the decision to make myself available. I was not always doing things I wanted to do.
When I was snowed under with the work of an idol, I didnt have time to think.