I stopped caring what people thought.
If I don't think about anything, and start with a clean slate, in terms of what I have to do, a lot of different ideas come up, and I can think about things more openly.
For the most part, I don't care about what everyone else is doing, or what is popular.
Now, on nights that I can't sleep, I play video games alone until the morning.
I never had the chance to consider what or how I wanted to be.
Even where friendship is concerned, it takes me a long time to trust people.