That's all I can do. I'll keep at it and hope it gets better.

I feel dead, wasted, awful, broken and useless. It's not the kind of feeling you forget.

It’s tough to get out of bed; I know that myself. You can lie there for an hour and a half without thinking anything, just worrying about what the day holds and knowing that you won’t be able to deal with it.

(...) Since I was a kid." "Which you refer to as 'back when you were happy.'" "Right.

I just want to not be me.

Of course I wasn't abused. If I were; things would be so simple. I'd have a reason to for being in a shrinks office. I'd have a justification and something to work on. The world wasn't going to give me something that tidy.

The Shift is coming. The Shift has to be coming. Because if you keep living like this you'll die.