It is not virtuous in any way to put yourself down, or to punish yourself, because you do not feel you have lived up to your best behavior at any given time.
SethIf you'd rather be a chooser, enter a market or a transaction where you have something to trade, something of value, something to offer that's difficult to get everywhere else. If all you have is the desire to get picked, that's not sufficient.
SethIt takes a lot of guts to stop measuring things that are measurable, and even more guts to create things that don't measure well by conventional means.
Seth