Nothing about becoming indispensable is easy. If it's easy, it's already been done and it's no longer valuable.
Playing safe is very risky.
As you've probably discovered, great work makes us uncomfortable.
The challenge with being an initiator of projects is that you are never, ever done.
The opposite of coherent is interesting.
Instead of wondering when your next vacation is, maybe you should set up a life you don't need to escape from.