As Peter Bogdanovich would say of Paper Moon: Ryan's wonderful in it, and he sat there and watched the kid steal the picture.

I have a temper, but I wouldn't call me abusive.

I've overcome neglect and deprivation, abandonment and abuse.

Paper Moon didn't bring me love.

The more love I craved, the more distant and abusive he grew. The role I longed to play was never written into Ryan's script: daughter.

I've purged myself of bitterness and anger and remained open to love.

Griffin, my brother, 11 months younger, was sometimes the victim of my father's fury - once Ryan famously knocked out his teeth.