Griffin, my brother, 11 months younger, was sometimes the victim of my father's fury - once Ryan famously knocked out his teeth.
I was punished for blowing the whistle on my father's lifestyle.
Things get so sloppy when you're under the influence.
I remained Ryan's companion on the Hollywood party circuit, growing inured to sex and drugs before I was in my teens.
I've triumphed over addiction.
I've purged myself of bitterness and anger and remained open to love.