The more love I craved, the more distant and abusive he grew. The role I longed to play was never written into Ryan's script: daughter.
I think all of us feel like we're a bit on show, all the time.
I've overcome physical and mental brutality - and fought back.
I remained Ryan's companion on the Hollywood party circuit, growing inured to sex and drugs before I was in my teens.
My children forgave me at a time when I could barely forgive myself.
I never dreamed that shooting a film would be so hard. There was less regulation then of child actors' hours. Even the concept of acting confused me.