Certain struggles never end.

I've triumphed over addiction.

My children forgave me at a time when I could barely forgive myself.

Griffin, my brother, 11 months younger, was sometimes the victim of my father's fury - once Ryan famously knocked out his teeth.

I have a temper, but I wouldn't call me abusive.

I've purged myself of bitterness and anger and remained open to love.

I remained Ryan's companion on the Hollywood party circuit, growing inured to sex and drugs before I was in my teens.