When someone was hitting me, or like sexually molesting me, it just seemed normal to continue to do that to myself.

I've overcome neglect and deprivation, abandonment and abuse.

Certain struggles never end.

I've overcome physical and mental brutality - and fought back.

The more love I craved, the more distant and abusive he grew. The role I longed to play was never written into Ryan's script: daughter.

Things get so sloppy when you're under the influence.

Griffin, my brother, 11 months younger, was sometimes the victim of my father's fury - once Ryan famously knocked out his teeth.