The same old dumb teachers teaching the same old dumb subjects in the same old dumb school. I seem to be kind of losing interest in everything. At first I thought high school would be fun but it's just dull. Everything's dull. Maybe it's because I'm growing up and life is becoming more blase.

The same old dumb teachers teaching the same old dumb subjects in the same old dumb school. I seem to be kind of losing interest in everything. At first I thought high school would be fun but it's just dull. Everything's dull. Maybe it's because I'm growing up and life is becoming more blase.

I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.

Why is life so difficult? Why can't we be just ourselves and have everyone accept us the way we are?

I’m really cracking. No, I’m beyond cracking. I’m shattered. I’m lost. I’m fragmented.

The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus "Not me! I didn't think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it.

How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?