I am my heart's undertaker. Daily I go and retrieve its tattered remains, place them delicately into its little coffin, and bury it in the depths of my memory, only to have to do it all again tomorrow.
Emilie AutumnBeing brave means to know something is scary, difficult, and dangerous, and doing it anyway, because the possibility of winning the fight is worth the chance of losing it.
Emilie AutumnI've been using Steinberg's Cubase exclusively to record and mix my music since the very beginning of my career. It's no exaggeration to say that Cubase has been my partner in bringing my music and message to the world, and, now, they are helping to bring my story to the world as well, as I record the audiobook of my novel.
Emilie AutumnPerfume was first created to mask the stench of foul and offensive odors... Spices and bold flavorings were created to mask the taste of putrid and rotting meat... What then was music created for? Was it to drown out the voices of others, or the voices within ourselves? I think I know.
Emilie AutumnAnd, what's more, this 'precious' body, the very same that is hooted and honked at, demeaned both in daily life as well as in ever existing form of media, harrassed, molested, raped, and, if all that wasn't enough, is forever poked and prodded and weighed and constantly wrong for eating too much, eating too little, a million details which all point to the solitary girl, to EVERY solitary girl, and say: Destroy yourself.
Emilie AutumnMy reasons to live Were my reasons to die But at least they were mine Now I've freedom unbound Cut the laces of life
Emilie AutumnIt is not seen as insane when a fighter, under an attack that will inevitable lead to his death, chooses to take his own life first. In fact, this act has been encouraged for centuries, and is accepted even now as an honorable reason to do the deed. How is it any different when you are under attack by your own mind?
Emilie AutumnAnd if I end up with blood on my hands, well I know, that you'll understand, 'cause I fight like a girl.
Emilie AutumnYou," he said, "are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why you are in so much pain.
Emilie AutumnWhy can I never go back to bed? Who's is the voice ringing in my head? Where is the sense in these desperate dreams? Why should I wake when I'm half past dead?
Emilie AutumnFor this freedom I have given all I had For this darkness I gave my light For this wisdom I have lost my innocence Take my petals And cover me with the night
Emilie AutumnI cut myself because you wouldn't let me cry. I cried because you wouldn't let me speak. I spoke because you wouldn't let me shine. I shone because I thought you loved me.
Emilie AutumnWe will paste upon the curled pages words Like charming and romantic and sentimental Forgetting that charming is witchcraft Romantic is love And sentiment is what makes us human
Emilie AutumnIf leeches ate peaches instead of my blood, then I would be free to drink tea in the mud!
Emilie AutumnEA: Is it the smoke that smells like vanilla? Audience: Yeah. EA: Yeah, they do that to mask the chemicals that are actually killing you.
Emilie AutumnThen I break a glass and I slit my very innermost thigh so that I can pretend that I'm menstru--- well, unavailable.
Emilie AutumnIt gives me strength to have somebody to fight for; I can never fight for myself, but, for others, I can kill.
Emilie AutumnI am personally not a lover of audiobooks in general, and I am indeed one of those people who don't count listening to a book being read by someone else as actually having read that book. It simply is not reading.
Emilie AutumnI could have guessed it all along, cuz now some drama queen is gonna write a song for me
Emilie AutumnThank you. It used to be knee length, but then I discovered that when I get angry I like to cut things. I'm not allowed to have scissors any more. It's still pretty lengthy, but I've been threatening to shave half of it for the past week and nobody seems to believe me... I do it all myself though because I scream when I'm touched and that scares people.
Emilie AutumnI've learned that I work best when I'm entirely naked. The recording process was done that way.
Emilie AutumnStudies show: Intelligent girls are more depressed Because they know What the world is really like Don't think for a beat it makes it better When you sit her down and tell her Everything gonna be all right She knows in society she either is A devil or an angel with no in between She speaks in the third person So she can forget that she's me
Emilie AutumnNothing in my life has ever made me want to commit suicide more than people's reaction to my trying to commit suicide.
Emilie Autumn