In order to find out who you are, you will, at some point, have to feel really isolated, left out, different.
If you can't move your brush good, just move your face.
You become yourself, every single day of your life, through your choices and how you think.
I don't recommend washing your face. Because you might drown.
You are the most rare & majestic you there ever was and ever will be.
Make your face not look like your face by piling on like the heaviest makeup you can find and do it with some kind of brush that won't judge you.