I'm pretty aware that the pursuit of perfection is, inherently, a flawed concept.

Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldnt bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down.

I do, have done and always will believe that I am very capable of performing and thriving at any level of the sport.

The problem with me is I always think I should've done better. I felt that after the World Cup final and through my whole career.

Playing the game, representing the team, giving my all and never letting go has meant everything to me.

We need to ask ourselves what are we here for and what have we worked so hard to be here for.

My own position is so far on the obsessive side of preparation and professionalism that I fear my point of view is not going to be shared by anyone.