I'm not necessarily proud of the World Cups and the grand slams won or lost, the amount of points I scored, this record or that.

I don't like kicking the ball a lot.

I play with a fear of letting my team down. That's what motivates me.

I know that Martin Johnson [the England coach] was in the stands, but I didn't feel it was up to me to impress them. He and his assistant [Brian Smith] were here to support me.

We need to ask ourselves what are we here for and what have we worked so hard to be here for.

What I am proud of is I have searched for the best of me and I have been a team man without fail.

Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldnt bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down.