Attempting to identify with the source is an idea. You are already that.

Beingness is just joy.

You are here. You are not the one who will go and come. Let what you're suffering from go and come, not you. You stay put.

When you are free from delusion, you can enjoy illusion. Enjoy the dream but enjoy the dream being free.

If I could give you only one advice, I would say: Don't identify with anything. Be completely empty - no one. Be no-body and see if you lose anything but delusion.

Stay faithful to your own discovery, leave the rest and life will take care of it.

Feelings are just visitors, let them come and go.