The reason they want you to fit in... is that once you do, then they can ignore you.
Make a decision. It doesn't have to be a wise decision or a perfect one. Just make one.
All motivation is self-motivation. Your family, your boss, or your co-workers can try to get your engine going, but until you decide what to accomplish, nothing will happen.
If you hear my idea and dont believe it , thats not your fault its mine.
The ONLY thing leaders have in common is the shared decision to lead.
Lack of resources (payroll), time and competing priorities are why so many nonprofits haven't done well. It's that simple.